So, we can all picture the white rabbit from Alice and Wonderland, right? Hopping and speeding everywhere. Constantly worried about time. He says “The hurrier I go, the behinder I get.” Isn’t that the truth now days. It seems like the minute we get one thing done; we have ten more things added to the list to get done. Another quote I love by him is “How long is forever? Sometimes just a second.”
What is time really? Just recently I passed a huge test for my certification that I needed in order to take the next step in my life for my kids and I. When I saw the word PASS, I felt this overwhelming feeling of accomplishment. Very few people know exactly what I have had to climb myself out of over the years. But I am doing it. I am finally getting to see that light. The light is not in reach yet, but it is there in sight. My pathway is no longer pitch black. This is when I looked at my journal and said manifestation works. Everything I have been telling myself I was going to get I have gotten or am getting. It is beautiful.
Some days I struggle with letting the universe take its course. I want it to be my way or the highway. We all know exactly how that works out. Part of fighting nature, the innate energy of our universe, gives us so much pain. It hurts. It is our own energy fighting the energy around us. All our atoms are vibrating together. We just have to learn to be at peace and vibrate to the same beat of the universe around us. Nature tells us what we need. It gives us what we need. Not always what we want. Or when we want it.
Today I drove down a street I used to drive every day. I felt the need to take control of something. I had to put my two-sense instead of trusting the universe to do it for me. Yeah…oopsie. Bad Lauren. As I drove home. I started to get one of those gut feelings. You know the ones you get that you cannot explain, but you know something. All those feelings are our guardian angels, the universe communicating to us. Most of us just brush it to the side. We ignore it. Sometimes we do listen to it. Yay, if you do!
Today I had one. It just told me to wait. To manifest. I have no idea how long I must wait. I have no idea how long I must manifest. But I know it works. The minute I got home I journaled, and the last words of my journal entry were my manifestation for this gut feeling I have. I know deep in the vibrations of my atoms something is meant to be.
The hardest part about manifestations is letting go of the control of how it will work. The universe has this beautiful way of unraveling everything for you exactly as you need it. If you think about it we are all walking this red carpet of life. Some just either choose to not walk on it. Some see it or others do not quite understand the miracle of the red carpet.
It is so hard. Right now I am fighting the urge to just scream I want it now. But I know if I had it now, it would not be what I need mentally. Part of this waiting is me continuing my journey in self-love. Loving myself every day. Putting myself first in order to be happy and healthy mentally. I know that this is one part of the puzzle the universe is waiting for me to figure out before I can be gifted the next puzzle piece of life.
Living at peace just as it is right at this very moment is hard. It is frustrating at times, but trusting this beautiful universe of ours is one of the best things I can do for my own self-love. It is one of the best things you can do for yourself. Trust. That is a hard word for me. I do not trust easy. But that five letter word, when given to the correct energy, is one of the most peaceful, and powerful things. You cannot stop living just because you are waiting. Think of all the beautiful things you will miss.
So here is to many manifestations. Many deep breathes as I get frustrated because it is not happening at my time, my way. Here is to the tears that will be shed as I wait but am trusting in the correct timing. I have been given everything my children and I need when we needed it. Remember what the white rabbit says… “forever, sometimes [is] just a second.” Breathe. Relax. Trust. Manifest.
Peace out from the Perfectly Imperfect Queen.
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